Wednesday, June 29, 2005
你不會懂得我傷悲 (You won't understand my sadness)
blinkymummy wrote me a letter on her blog. I copy for you to read. Life is very hard, want to keep a blog fren also difficult.
She think I have girlfriend, or that I scared of her candidness (I check the dictionary, it means like talk very straight), or that I am Cowboy Caleb (hahahahahahah!!!). But she is wrong.
I have girlfriendssss, I like girl who talk like the candid camera, and Cowboy Caleb have many nice pirate mp3 songs but he is not Rockson Takumi Tan. I don't even think he know Chinese or Hokkien, because his English is the Ang Moh Eat Potatoe kind. Actually, I think I know who Cowboy Caleb is. I need to check somemore first, then I will share with you my Cowboy theory next time.
Anyway this is blinky letter to me:
I read your entry. It is a not-so-subtle way of rejecting my attention. I think I can understand why.
I seriously think it's neither about your previous unhappy experience with a 'cloth badge', nor class difference. The real reason is either (1) you have a girlfriend, or (2) my candidness has worried the shite out of you, (3) you are actually Cowboy Caleb, or all of the above.
Whatever it is, I can agree with you on one important point. You are really not an Ah Beng. You are just 'chor'. Real Ah Bengs mean what they say. 敢做敢为, 说得出做得到. Real Ah Bengs will not opine that smoking and wearing beach shorts are characteristics of 坏女人.
It was good while it lasted. (Err... less than 1 week.) 长痛不如短痛. I am sorry I have to remove you from My Ah Bengs. This is the only way I know how to deal with it. Hope you can understand. Thanks for the memories and dream.
This is my life. My heart broken again. Always like that. That is why Andy Lau's song is always playing in my heart (he is my favourite Heavenly Sky King):
Cloth badge Convent girls, they are so good at English and Chinese, and at breaking guy heart.....
(See the new photo style? Lawrence my computer expert friend say Blogger can now use put photos and make the words go around the photo like newspaper like that! Fucking good, man!)